Heartache

Today my heart is aching. My heart aches for music therapy, my heart aches for hospice work. I’m hitting my professional paper pretty hard, as I have 7 weeks to get it finished. The more engrossed I become in hospice literature the more I desire to work there. I have always desired to work in hospice, since I did a practicum there in 2007. But as I have gone down the professional paper road, the desire has become stronger and stronger. Will I never be able to work in hospice? I know that God will grant us the desires of our heart... I know that God will provide what is best for me at His chosen time. But I am human and I am weak, and some days I weep from the heartache. Some days I become angry that I cannot work in a field that I love so much. I know that God has great plans for me, I know that He teaches and strengthens through our suffering and trials. I also know that I am so extremely blessed. I have an absolutely AMAZING husband who loves me and cares for me unconditionally. I have amazing friends and family that support me and love me. Both my husband and I are in good health, he has a great job, we have money to pay for an apartment, bills, food, cars, and my graduate school. Please pray for me friends, that I can focus my blessings, that I will continue to have strength and trust in the God and His plan for me even on days like this.

More work

So now that the wedding is over I should have lots of free time to relax before heading back to school next week....WRONG! There is still sooo much to do! Got most of the thank you cards written. Josh and I have been cleaning and rearranging the apartment to try to accomdate our new dishes and gifts. We are getting rid of our college plastic dishes! Woohoo!! The process of changing my name is really extensive as well. Yesterday I sat for an hour at DPS and an hour at the social security office to get those changed over. I also spent about an hour on the phone with the car insurance people to get all of that squared away. Hopefully Josh will get off early one day this week so we can get our bank account set up. Still so much work to do! The cats have been freaking out a little bit. I think they think we are moving again with all the boxes and packing and unpacking! Other than that things are great! :)