Heartache

Today my heart is aching. My heart aches for music therapy, my heart aches for hospice work. I’m hitting my professional paper pretty hard, as I have 7 weeks to get it finished. The more engrossed I become in hospice literature the more I desire to work there. I have always desired to work in hospice, since I did a practicum there in 2007. But as I have gone down the professional paper road, the desire has become stronger and stronger. Will I never be able to work in hospice? I know that God will grant us the desires of our heart... I know that God will provide what is best for me at His chosen time. But I am human and I am weak, and some days I weep from the heartache. Some days I become angry that I cannot work in a field that I love so much. I know that God has great plans for me, I know that He teaches and strengthens through our suffering and trials. I also know that I am so extremely blessed. I have an absolutely AMAZING husband who loves me and cares for me unconditionally. I have amazing friends and family that support me and love me. Both my husband and I are in good health, he has a great job, we have money to pay for an apartment, bills, food, cars, and my graduate school. Please pray for me friends, that I can focus my blessings, that I will continue to have strength and trust in the God and His plan for me even on days like this.